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Friday, September 30, 2005

i am feeling very sad, real sad. read the message that jaime sent me and my tears just flowed. i just couldn't help it. i don't know why things will turn out this way. sigh.
okay. slept till 8 today? so much for sleeping in. yeapp. gonna study real soon, but i just can't seem to concentrate. oh man. wake up, exams are in 3 days time and i haven't done anything productive. damn. i bet many people didn't turn up for school. heh. i hope everything is gonna turn out for the better. i am praying real hard.

just wish that i could turn back time. i don't wanna be in sec 3. i hate sec 3 life. all the stress, changes, pressure, driftings, conflicts. they all seem to happen so quickly. where's the innocence of being a sec 1? or the joy of being in sec 2? i really miss everything so much. it never was a great year at all. 2005. in fact, its one of the worst. alright alright. shall not talk rubbish anymore. shall blog off now.

i am really trying hard to live happily, but it didn't really work. because i still cry myself to sleep almost every night.

i just wish that people would understand me better,
give me a lil more trust and not accuse me for things i didn't do/say.